I have to admit that I've been filling absolutely great! I feel ecstatic about my pregnancy. I walk around with my head held high, a huge smile, and a positive attitude toward life. I feel great!
Then there's a morning like today..where I feel a bit moody.. still happy but shadowed by anger and sadness. It seems these times come out of the blue for no reason. Or is there a reason? Sometimes I think its related to my emotions toward the father which lay on the surface of my heart. Sometimes its just the reality of my situation..of feeling alone when in fact I'm surrounded by friends and family. Sometimes its anxiety driven. Sometimes I just need a nap after working an exhausting 10 hour day.
Whatever the reason when these moods arise I have no idea what to do with them. I cry, I clean, I talk to a friend, I growl at something, I take a nap. It helps a little, but the unwanted emotions return. I suppose that's just the natural pregnancy emotional roller coaster I get to be on.
Today, maybe, these emotions arise because I have the ultrasound tomorrow.
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